In the 10th year of our marriage (or it might be the 11th, but whatever), I have been telling him this so many times, but he just doesn’t get it. Why doesn’t he get it? My question, “Shall we get a rice cake?” is not really a question. It’s just a declarative sentence in a question’s clothing.
Why does he forget it every day? It’s not like rocket science level grammar.
I am sure that men suck at grammar. I am absolutely sure.
While I was talking to my nephew and ended a sentence with the Korean word “in-ma (인마)”, he told me not to use that word because it’s bad. Is it? Since when? Well, it can be a little bit, but it’s more like a “dude” than a bad word. Technically, it can be a bad word but I can’t explain its origin (I can’t, and I don’t really bother to either).
He’s in 4th grade so he is supposed to be learning a lot of curse words and practicing them but he’s obviously a peacekeeper neglecting his age-appropriate duty. I don’t know what kind of person he will become. I’m kind of looking forward to it though.
When my knee feels strange while running, I walk and when it feels ok I run again. When my leg split hurts too much, I take a deep breath and stretch my legs slowly. When my back feels stiff, I reduce my core workouts, and when I feel a bit tired, I go to bed earlier than usual.
I don’t fit myself into the workout, rather I take things slowly and fit the workout to my condition.
I respect my pace and consider my physical condition.
Slowly and with ease.
It’s strange.
I have had a sore throat since yesterday. The daily temperature range is large these days and the breeze in the shade can be chilly, but it didn’t seem bad enough to cause a cold. Is my immunity weakening because I’ve been feeling a bit tired?
Then, something hit me.
I wanted to improve my English speaking while taking a walk, so I talked to an AI while walking, and I think it may have caused this throat irritation. Talking to an AI while taking a walk makes me look like a person talking on the phone, so it doesn’t really make me look like a crazy person. Still, was the fine dust level high in the air? Or is it all the pollen these days? I’ve learned that I need to wear a mask or something if the air quality is questionable.
There was a danger in English speaking practice while walking. I didn’t know that. Alas.
When not knowing what to do and being overwhelmed, it would be good to think like this. This is just a warm-up. It’s only because it’s the first time. You just need to keep going. You only need to do it with a light heart.
When not knowing what to do and being overwhelmed, with that kind of mindset, you can do it more easily.
I got a call from my nephew.
As I spoke with him, I noticed my tone of voice changing. My usual nonchalant, dry voice is gone, and it has become warm, tender, and a little bit sweet. It almost feels like I’ve suddenly become a daycare teacher.
It’s something that usually doesn’t come out. Not even with my husband. I don’t really try to do it, and I’m not even really conscious of it. It just comes out like this. Listening to myself, I feel like, “Why is this woman talking like this?”
Why does talking to my nephew change my tone of voice? Is it because I’ve known him since he was a baby?
Every time I talk to him, my own voice surprises me. What’s up with this, seriously?
Sometimes, the biggest obstacles to effortlessly and naturally conducting of a task are the pressure of “I need to do it well” which nobody really imposed and an excessive “I want to do it well” desire that outruns the task.
Don’t let them get to you. Just do what you always do and what you can do.
…made my arm muscle bulge a little bit. Only 20 reps.
Although my body was born to be pretty much muscleless with my fat hanging like a curtain, pushups tend to make my arm bigger than I expected (maybe I expected so little). It’s just amazing what 20 reps of pushups can do.
Of course, I think muscles on my upper and middle back got a bit firmer, and my shoulder and arm strength slightly improved. My husband sometimes pokes my back and tells me that I got good muscles there.
Still, I’ve decided I won’t accept any more bulging arm muscles, and I will no longer do the Judo pushup. So, what should I do now for my upper body training?
I need to find an alternative quickly to prevent any muscle loss (like I have a lot of muscle).
My husband told me that he didn’t have anything to feel joy about. I asked him to write down a list of things, including very small things, he felt good about this morning, and then I wrote down mine.
– I felt good that my leg splits were slightly (very slightly) better than yesterday.
– I felt good that reading while doing the pigeon pose allowed me to stretch and read at the same time.
– I felt good that Ken Fisher’s book was interesting.
– I felt good that the leaves were vibrant green during my morning walk at the park.
– I felt good that the egg yolks of the boiled eggs I had for breakfast were just perfectly cooked to my taste.
– I felt good that wrapping half-milled brown rice and crunchy cucumber rapee with roasted dried laver tasted like sushi.
– I felt good just thinking about cooking and eating clam Jjambbong with Chinese cabbage and bok choy.
There were 5 items on my husband’s list, most of which were related to food. What a perfect couple. I asked him to add to the list if he came up with something later during the day. How many more he will add by the time he comes home?
I like the joy of achieving big tasks, yet small and trivial joys are also good.
No, they are actually better because they are more abundant and last longer.
I avoid the temptation to be good at English, Japanese, and the piano. It’s because by maintaining a habit of input and practicing output, output will come naturally without my control.
Today, I avoid the temptation.
The temptation to control the output.
